"My" cute grandson!

No w0rds are really necessary. Katie calls this the "Attack of the Aunties" to see more pictures click on Katie's blog. They are sooo cute!

Pity Party

I have to apologize for my last post. I guess I was having a pity party and I was the only one invited. I guess I'll chalk it up to instable hormones and move on. I think that is the message anyway. Just move on. No two days are the same, they always bring something different. Yesterday at church our Bishop in his message gave this quote, "The futures a mystery, the past is gone, and thats why today is a gift, it is the present." something to that effect. Not that anything has changed much since Saturday, its just different today.

Chin Up

Does anyone else have trouble keeping their, "chin up"??? I could use some help on this. You know just new ideas as to how to get threw the day to day. Don't get me wrong, I'm saying my prayers, trying to show more faith, reading my scriptures, working my Sunday lessons way in advance of Sunday, etc. but with all that is going on in the world and in my personal "Mashoonga!" world I find it harder and harder. And I hate to say it but money would help. So often no one comes out and says that awful truth: I need more money in my life! There I said it, if you say it it will come. I don't know that yet but we'll see. For me the burden of pressure that sits on my shoulders and just stays there seems to be finding a permanent place. I know the self help stuff, music, a song in your heart, cast your burdens on the Lord, but I come back to this lethargy that paralyzes me from "doing". I usually would garden or make something for someone, or visit a friend, or go to lunch, or shop, or take a class, or do service. But as our funds have shriveled up, and all gone to our business, there isn't anything left. No hair cuts, no contact lenses, no lunches, not even a costco card! This sounds so trivial, and I know there are so many with so much worse, physical pains, death, accidents, trauma, abuse, addictions, jail, prison, homelessness, oppression. I am grateful for my trials, I just wish I could afford them. So if anyone knows of some investors or has ideas to send me back to my possitive nature PLEASE respond!

A New Year

Thanksgiving has come and gone, Christmas too and even New Years Day is behind me. The three biggies. And yet I have not found the time to update my blog. Funny thing is Jim and Luke think I do it all the time. Not true at all. While I am on the computer, I'm usually reading everyone's blog and that takes a long time. You are all so cleaver, and the lay outs and pictures are so fun. So the creative procrastinator in me dreams about how I could improve, I try out a few things, press enter and.. you got it, I forgot to press save! Ugh. I think I can remember that now.

As I review all that has gone on in the last 2 months I'm amazed at how much we pack into a season. And the times I love the most are when I'm with family or friends, and the times when I have quiet reflections. Although I have to be careful with those reflections 'cause often I just end up in tears!
So I think I'll just post a few of my favorite pictures that come to mind as part of our holiday starting with Luke's birthday at Disneyland.

1. Talking to Elder Bogner when he flew to S. Korea, and on Christmas Eve- what a joy it is to hear from him. He has an exceptional Mission Pres. and his wife has a web site for the families of the missionaries. She posts regularly pictures and even videos of whats happening in the field. It helps to make the miles closer!

2. Baby Ryan! what more can be said about this cute little guy. I just can't get enough of him. And when he was here over Christmas I had to share him! I wish I had a fairy godmother who could grant me all my wishes and fill my bank account so I could go see him and have him come here too!

3. Our Thanksgiving on the beach with Carly and Luke.


4. The First Annual Guacamole-Off
staring "the Captain", Spencer and Ryan.
Guess who won?









5. Of course Christmas morning, well the whole day. I just love my family so much!


so
what else is there......hmmmm.. those blasted goals for '09....

maybe next time!!


Happy New Year!