Thursday, October 10, 2019

Resurrection is Real!

I have decided to resurrect this blog once again. Funny how life sends us curves, and twist. Sometimes those very things prevent us from doing what is needed and what is best for our souls. We should have never gotten married. There. It’s out there. Floating around somewhere in the universe. A truth I could have told myself in a galaxy far, far, away. Or as I’ve imagined starting a book like Karen Blixen, I had a marriage, instead of “I had a farm in Africa.” For twenty five years I was a silent partner about what was happening in my marriage. For twenty five plus years daily pain and regret alongside hope and faith have been my companions. You see, the person I trusted and love more than anyone had a toxic secret that he told me he wanted to overcome. I trusted him, walked beside him, went to therapy with him, loved him. And in the end the betrayal and carnage from so many lies and deceptions ended the marriage. The walk of faith is a daily endeavor. One that takes courage, spiritual muscle, and hope. It is time to tell the story. My story as truthfully as I can. From my perspective, from my heart, from a desire to help anyone that might also be in a relationship of toxic betrayal. We were married 38 years! 38 years is a long time! Oh but let me tell you the love story. Love at first sight
does exist. But remember this is MY story, how I felt, and saw our life. I don't claim I was right, how can anyone claim to be accurate in a relationship of the heart. Isn't that the point of love? To love with all your heart, into that dangerously exciting place of blindness? I was there from the first moment I looked into those beautiful eyes. College days, the semester had not quite started and there he was. Standing beautifully in front of me. I felt like I was looking at Brad Pitt or a reincarnation of a Ralph Lauren model. And yes I did swoon, but only to myself. I held my breath while my roommate introduced us. And then I still can not believe the words that came from my mouth! College, Saturday, the prospects of meeting new people and he needed a ride to the liquor store. "I've got a car, I'll drive you". What was I thinking! Some powerful emotion took over my mind and body, and off I went on an adventure of a life time. That's all it took, those eyes, and that voice.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sunday, August 9, 2009


Well sometimes life gets so busy somethings got to go! I know you all have those periods in your lives. But with Blogging it becomes really apparent and public as to what we all choose to give up. In fact, I think about what to blog, but because there is so much I give up...Too much thinking... and as you know sometimes that just a hard thing to do. So, here's again to a new commitment! And in the mean time these are some of the wonderful things in my life! Our cute grandson who is so funny, my darling Katie and Spencer finding joy in everyday, The adventurous Plewe couple that just returned from New Zealand/Australia, and travel up and down the coast and to and from UT constantly, Our beautiful Carly, enduring all the tests these economic times have to give, Elder Max, and his conquering the Korean language as he serves in S. Korea, And of course, Lucky Luke who got to climb Half Dome, go to EFY, play volleyball, shoot hoops, and watch his parents annoy him daily, and my loving husband that I get to make Mashoonga!'s with!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009


My girl's are always calling for recipes and with our beautiful spring weather I thought I would post one of our all time favorites. It comes from a department store restaurant I went to with my mom when I was a little girl. Bullock's Department Store was located on Lake Ave in Pasadena. It was a special treat to go to lunch there. They had a fashion show during lunch, with a runway and wonderful models. Funny I can picture that lunch room today with its wide bamboo chairs and tropical green fabric on the padded seats. We would get dressed up, with our patent leather shoes (white or black depending on the season). By "we" I mean my sister and my mom. And we would always order the same thing... an egg salad sandwich with chips and a sweet pickle and Lemon Meringue Pie for dessert. Always a very special memory.
Here's the best Lemon Meringue Pie from Bullock's Pasadena

1/4 C flour
5 T cornstarch
1t salt
1 1/2 C sugar
2 1/4 C boiling water
3 egg yolks
1/2 C plus 1T lemon juice
Grated zest of 1 1/2 lemons
1t butter
1 9" baked pie shell

1. Mix flour, corn starch, salt, sugar and boiling water. COOK in top of double boiler over simmering water OR over direct low heat about 15 min or until thickened and clear, stirring constantly.
2. ADD lightly beaten egg yolks and cook 2 min longer.
3. ADD lemon juice, zest and butter.
4. Cool slightly then turn into baked pie shell.
5. Spoon meringue over pie completely covering filling. Place pie in OVEN at 400 degrees to brown slightly. About 10 min or until tinged w/brown.

3 egg whites
6T sugar
1/4 t cream of Tartar

1. Beat egg whites until frothy.
2. Gradually beat in sugar and cream of tartar until whites are stiff.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Once a month is not enough!

It has been a busy month! And I hate playing catch up because I am lousy at it. But there have been some really special moments this month, and they can best be discribed in pictures. As most of you know, my son Max is serving a mission for our church. He is serving in the Seoul West South Korea Mission. It has been an incredible experience I'm sure for him! And for me it has been a roller coaster of emotions. Sometimes I miss him so much I just break down and cry. And at the same time I am so grateful he is there and would not want him here loafing on the couch. I love the wisdom that he shares with us, the way he lifts our spirits, how his testimony has grown, that he is being real, and true to himself and his beliefs, that he is relying on the Lord in all he does, that he can write to everyone in our family and have a very special message for each of us. I love that his humor comes through even though he is so far away, and that he is full of love for those he is serving.

While Max was in the mission training center a sister missionary from the Seoul West area came up to his group and asked if anyone was from the Oakland Mission. Max said he was and they exchanged information and went on their way. Sister Cho is here at the Oakland Temple and serving in one of the Walnut Ward. I have met her at the Temple and have had her and her companion Sister Nai over for lunch. And in Korea her Mom has phoned Max a few times and has had him and the other missionaries over to her house for dinner! I feel so blessed to have this connection with the Cho Family,and having Sister Cho here, in our house, getting to know us, and answering so many of our Korea questions. The Lord really knows what we need when we need it!

Friday, March 6, 2009 -- SNL: Don't Buy Stuff You Cannot Afford

This makes me smile and laugh. Watch it and then we can all go out to dinner with Jim's credit card! -- SNL: Don't Buy Stuff You Cannot Afford: "SNL: Don't Buy Stuff You Cannot Afford
added: 02/07/2006"

Monday, March 2, 2009

Max's Birthday

This little video needs no explanation. Actually I am a little embarrassed to put it up, but its who we are. And I thought it was a bit amusing too. Other people put cute pictures of their little kids, well Jim and I are those little kids.